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i haven't posted anything in so long.
and the last time i did it was way lame, way boring and stupid.

i havent been doing much lately, i've been working like a fucking feen!
i work everyday, i just finally started hanging out with my friends again.
some whom i hadnt seen in months, or just a month.

i've been a shopping queen lately,
i've have had mad cash money flow and i've been spending it on stupid shit instead of say...
a car!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 which i probbaly could of had by the end of this summer if i hadnt spent my money on clothes.

i ordered a movie, called "Return of Oz" if anyone hasnt seen it...get it!
for real, its a twisted version of the wizard of oz.
sooo good, way creepy.
a few words.

"beware of the wheelers"

Current Music:
flatliners
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i am getting sick more and more everyday
about how things are run and any thoughts that i have.
the whining and complaining about how one looks
i remember when i didnt giive i shit how i looked.
now its all too materialism.
to be fashionable, pretty, handsome.
cell phones, ipods to look cool...
i dont know where im going with this at all.

i think i just want to not think as much,
care as much.
the thoughts that go thru my head are ridiculous at times, 
and i know their ridiculous but i keep thinking about them.
maybe thats called insanity?
or not even.

just thoughts

i dont want to stay in windsor anymore.
i want to move on do something new.
im excited to start school
just really wish i was starting school somewhere else.
completely different and new.
but i have two, maybe three years tops left here.

i really wish i would of gone to  alberta this summer. 
just some that last adventure before everything.
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i think i died a little bit today
or at least dying from the truth of everything.
and all from watching a movie
is it seriously possible sometimes that when you watch a movie it can have such an effect on you that your insides feel meaingless and non-existant?
and that the world is really just going to end by  wrongful ways of a simple human with an idea that they think is "great"
thats how i feel right now at this moment
and it sounds so stupid to say 
but someday if thats how the world turns
i hope some roman numerial will save us all.

hmmm......

Current Mood:
left thinking left thinking
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i feel so lame
nothing is changing and i still feel the same way
ive been trying to go another way and its just not working
i really just dont want to think about you and this anymore
its been almost  a year and i feel so pathetic
anyone have the smarts and money to start lacuna?

im getting better, ive been sick for the past week and a half and its been balls!
but im getting better so thats sweet

my mum is gonna buy my my next tattoo
of course it'll be a small little one which is sweet
because i dont have the money to buy a tattoo

i wann just take my income tax money and spend it all on tattooossss 
buttt ive got bills to pay, so thats going all to my visa!!

st patricks day this weekend
i'm excited to wear green and be irish to the max!!
the one day everyone can be irish and drink like a fool or not drink!
its just a day for fun!

i miss my best friend hardcore
i had an offer to move to london and i would seriously take it if i didnt have part of my life planned already
i'd be able to hang with my best friend and see her all the time
but i cant
so that just means im gonna have to work my ass off
get a car and go there all the time!!!!!
hopefully i'll see you soon!<33

face
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another photoshoot....WOOT....way excited!!!!!!!!!!!!
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tonight was pretty much way too sweet for words
alyssa kieran rob mandy and i all hung out
and i havent hung out in a long time cause ive been in this weird mood lately
but tonight was the best
we hung out watched 28 days later, played pictionary, spoons and guess!
while life aquatic was playing
spoons was the best because we all had the best hiding spots and when the one person was looking for the rest of us they did the funniest things
i hope to have more days like these
and i'm sure i will with this crew that all we do is have fun together!
kieran goes to court tomorrow and i'm kind of scared for him
but i'm sure things will turn out okay in the end
i dont know! i guess we'll have to wait and see

reannon comes home in 8 days

p.s reannon i dont know where we'll beable to party cause theres a chance kieran might be in jail?!
so i'm gonnasee if we can just party here? or i dont know?!
miss and love you!

Current Music:
nice dream - radiohead
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woooowwwwwwwww
i feel sooo bad for a girl i know
shes been with her boyfriend for like 3 years now
she met him in alberta and they were suppose to get a place together this summer when she goes again
well she was online the other day and found pictures of him on a dating site and they were recent
like holy shit did he not think that she or someone she knew wouldnt see them!!
and they were pictures that she took of him!
and like they used him for a advertiisment!

so shes way bummed but i'm glad shefound out all this bullshit now 
than in a few years when she could of been engaged to him
which they were maybe planning on doing so

ughhh some boy are just buttheads!

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please dont just leave me hanging
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i'm not absolutely sure what im gonna do
but i'll figure it out
and i'll get what i want and need
and if not then i'll just keep walkin

katie cooper drunk makes me giggle

Current Music:
rise against
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If it takes away the pain it's all right
we're livin' so hard you might not make it through the night
follow the bright lights
they might change you
if you get lost along the way it's all right

we'll find another way to dance
we'll find another way to dance
if you get the chance
you must dance dance dance

if you get caught out in the storm it's all right
you're livin' so hard you can't stay fry when you're out tonight
stare at the bright lights
they might blind you
look at them too long and you might see it's all right


ahhh i love dancelife
i dont care how gay or lame it can be sometimes
i like it alot!
and i like the song alot too!
i'm getting back into dancing too which makes me really happy
i cant wait
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the sooner i move away
the better i'll be

fuck you life
i'm done

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i dont have an addictive personality
but for some reason i cant stop you...
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mann i love/hate watching tattoo shows
because it makes me want new ink sooo badd!!!
i hate being in debt
TATTOOO ME BITCHES! FO FREE!

here are some pros and cons
+ i've taken some awesome pictures lately
+ best friend coming home this weekend!
- my monroe got infected this week and i dont know how
- ate too much candy tonight
+ went to go see alpha dog....
- didnt get to see it because it wasnt playing at the theatre we were at
+ my mum made the best ice cream cake every the other night
- one of my friends heart was riped out her throat and stepped on
+ i start training tomorrow to develop photos
- my fish is slowly dying=(
- my skin looks terrible
+ my friends are awesome as usual
+ had the best tea ever tonight!!! PEACH TEA! I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!

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Full-of-wonder-girl
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woooottt
i think i start training this week in the actual photolab
developing pictures!!!
well hopefully i do, cause that'd be AWESOMEEE

last night i dyed my hair all brown
it looks pretty good
and im getting it trimmed this week too
cause my hair isnt growing any
so i needs to chop some of it off!!

work is picking up again
working everyday pretty much again
which i dont mind, gives me something to do and have some cash in my pocket
but not for long since i have so much shit to pay for.

gotta start saving money for tattoooosssss

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really cant wait for 2007 to begin
like seriously i need something new and great to happen
cause 2006 and officially gone to hell for me
it just really sucks when something important to me
HAS to disappear completely
just so i'll be okay

blahhh gay

bought sweet stuff when i shouldnt of
oh well
money comes and goes from my pocket

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ugh fuck
yet again im broke as fuck
idiot...
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kierans home and its way sweet
but i know hes gonna leave again.
which sucks but he even told me so

our hangouts are pretty sweet
i miss them
this is one reason why i wish kieran would just stay
cause hes one reason why we always get together
we all love each other to death
but we always seem to split

benny boy and i were talking bout how things changed
funny how i always seem to have this exact same conversation with everyone i know
and every time its the same , and never gets old
and the truth is always the same

life and just the world fucks with my head too much
i dont know what to think of it, or how to feel
i dont believe in anything soo
im jsut hanging out and waiting to die?

blah i dont know
as long as im having fun and not wasting my time
i dont care.

"i should of known better nothing last forever"

and this is here just because its my favorite saying right now?!
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my cats are all weirdos
saw cool people today
made some awesome mini pizzas
smack that
anyone wanna dance with me?
reannon comes home in two days, im gonna die!
buying presents for my family is fun
realized i dont need anymmore clothes
but i want them
maybe cutting my hair soonish?

HAHAH I'm gonna get you guys involved!

Should i cut my hair?

nahhh leave it...
chop it bitch!!
maybe
dye it instead


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